Does Bonnie have a blog anymore? Yes, she does!
I’ve just been so busy I hardly have time to update it. If I was being good, and sleeping now, as I should be, then I wouldn’t be checking my mail at all today, let alone blog! But I’m up, so I am online for a few minutes.
Egan Warming Centers have opened in town. They are locations that are set up temporarily so homeless people can sleep indoors when the temperature drops below 28 – which is has been for the past few nights, and is expected to be for the next few nights. The one that Porter and I have been volunteering at (Porter has been a lot more than I have) is the youth site, and is the same as Hosea’s site, which feeds kids three nights a week regularly no matter what the weather.
So, anyway. I’m very glad they have made these sites. On mornings when I wake up and it’s freezing outside, I think about all of the guys who undoubtedly have spent their night in the park, facing a cold day – whereas I have spent a nice warm night in bed and am headed to work in a warm environment.
I worked all day today, which was very tiring for some reason, and very boring! Usually I don’t have such a hard time keeping entertained, but I was just so tired I couldn’t think about anything interesting, and I got a headache in the afternoon. Housekeeping is definitely a more satisfying job than running a cash register, but the cash register is a little easier as far as physical stamina goes. Had I gotten a headache and felt that exhausted at a housekeeping job, I might have just told them I was going to sit down for a while and try to recover. (And I would have asked for Tylenol, which reminds me that I ought to always make sure I have some on hand when I’m away from the house.)
The other night I was frustrated with something while Porter was gone and I started crying, and I just didn’t know what to do with what I was feeling. So I put on running clothes and ran across a particular part of the river in town, which is about one and half miles from here. It was incredibly satisfying. About 2 minutes into the run I accidentally did something in my mouth that caused my toothache to kick in, which usually lasts for a few minutes. It was so painful! But I kept saying to myself “The pain will not kill you. And “A toothache will not kill you.” And eventually the pain was gone, but it was so bad for a few minutes. And I wondered what pain most of the street people have felt – the ones who sleep right in the park I was running by.
I thought this afternoon at work, while I had a headache, that Paul actually dealt with things just like I was dealing with – I mean, physical symptoms. And he suffered much worse, of course! But I was thinking in particular that he was sleepless and hungry, and tired, and if he didn’t drink enough water, he probably got a headache. And those feelings were not some kind of weird, old fashioned things. The wear and tear on his body would have been the same as wear and tear on ours. So I will face my little trials and tribulations in trying to do God’s work with courage! It is not unnatural to suffer in loving.
On the running front again, I feel I have to return to it again for more thoughts. It is amazing when you just decide that no matter what, you’re going to keep going. Not because you get amazing things done, necessarily, but because it just feels empowering. It doesn’t matter if you end up crawling, you’re going to keep going as much as you can. Of course, I didn’t, because I walked some on the way home when I certainly could have been running. But every point at which you feel like quitting and keep going is an amazing little feeling. You can punch the air and say “Dang it!I’m going to keep going!”
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